ANZI:D .

http://threedeadroses.blogspot.com .

i am freaking out alr . i dont know .

i dont want to know . i dont want to care.

i dont think i even have friends. Pathetic to the max.

its always . my fault . always.

have you guys ever thought of how i felt .

Being left out .

every single time .

No.

i hate how i have to act ,

and when i dont feel like talking, its my fault again .

i just cant take it , cant take it no more.

WEBCAMMMMMMMMMED :D.

with darllling stacey . heehee .

nationals time trial in less then two weeks .

i cant lose concentration , Gotta Bucked up !

AIM : hurdles 80m nationals . DC :D

he taught me how to love , but not how to stop.

Never try to trick me with a kiss

Never try to trick me with a kiss
Pretending that the birds are here to stay;
The dying man will scoff and scorn at this.

A stone can masquerade where no heart is
And virgins rise where lustful Venus lay:
Never try to trick me with a kiss.

Our noble doctor claims the pain is his,
While stricken patients let him have his say;
The dying man will scoff and scorn at this.

Each virile bachelor dreads paralysis,
The old maid in the gable cries all day:
Never try to trick me with a kiss.

The suave eternal serpents promise bliss
To mortal children longing to be gay;
The dying man will scoff and scorn at this.

Sooner or later something goes amiss;
The singing birds pack up and fly away;
So never try to trick me with a kiss:
The dying man will scoff and scorn at this.

LIKED!

oh . i am just fucking a loner.

i dont know why.

People just fucking rather believe others than you .

i hate myself , for making me myself .

i NEED TO GET A FUCKING HELL LIFE.

i scew my life for you , and this is what you think of me .

Great.

love stacey to the max!

really really grateful , that you cared and was concern about me .

Really lucky to have you by my side , :DDDD.

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i dont know how to explain ,

maybe i am just thinking too much ,

too paronoid about things.

and i dont want to hurt feelings .

and i keep pushing myself to do things i dread.

why ? maybe i am still the clone of miss little geek .

i just can't stop loving face.

anzi , you suck balls .

i hope i was really really mr strong.

give me the strength .

i am trying too hard  , to please myself , to please others .

am behaving like some bitch , trying to get a standing ovation and a round of applause .

Till i realised , i am just being dumb .

Cause i dont like those bitching , those callings , Those cryings , those swollen eyes.

I want to let it go , But vengeance and hatred seems to get the more of me .

Giving up like i dont care bout those losing , embarrassing myself like nobodys watching .

I want to be me , CHANGANZI .

not the Clone of miss little geek .
having friends problems isnt what i want , And i hope to solve it .

Conflicts and problems , i hate me .

trying hard not to collasped seems so tough .

idontgetthefrigginme.

and twofaced go around me saying its ohkay

and friggin acting that they like . me.

Fine , dont like me ,  just say .

I know i ama mega bitch , okay.

Complaining in my blog isnt an excuse.

i am just letting my feeling outs ,

Frustations , those little annoying things have piled up like a huge mountain.

i dont care.

i dont care anymore.

Guys, ignore this post.

hahahaha (: , i like it dead , Cleon .

At least , i am left alone .

hope to see you guys on 12 february !

i am kind of bored these days .

Hmm guys , i want to bake cookies for valentines

anybody interested?

ohkay , this is boring .

Sports school life was fun ,

Going to start a whole new module next week .

Missing 6ps here.

Trying to find something to occupy me .

But everything seems to fail .

found my usb cord , so posting to you guys the awesome photos now ! (: .

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let me go  MIA-ING !

i dont feel good .